Black Friday and I'm not Shopping

For the past few days I have been in home heaven. It's so nice to be here and get a break from school and work. Not that I don't love my job. I am one of the few people who really can't complain. I have a nice job and a nice boss and a really nice opportunity. We are building a beauty salon down stairs from the tanning place and it really is exciting because it was my idea. Once my boss agreed and liked it...it went into action. It's been several months since the business proposal and it's finally just days away from opening. It's really exciting. Anyways. Family holidays usually stress me out...just because there is so much to do. I really love it though. And this year I didn't feel the stress as much. Maybe I ate myself into a stupper.

Or maybe it was the all day shopping, very theraputic, trip with my Aunt and Cousin on Wednesday. It was nice to rebond and talk again. With our lives so hectic and being away at school I miss out on that quailty time.

But the mall. Yes. The mall was interesting. SOOOOOOO many people so little time. But my favorite was definally the woman who looked like her hat could fly away. By itself. She was walking through the food court when we were having lunch and she was flying by so fast that if my cousin had not spotted her from a distance it would have been something I missed. She was in head to toe patchwork. Bright and colorful patch work all over her floor length coat and her very large brimmed hat. But the hat was the best thing she was wearing. It was every color and pattern patchwork even available I believe and it was covered in insanley large feathers. They stuck out longer than ostrich feathers. I don't know how she could even see to walk.

And even though I didn't go crazy and buy a ton of things, I really did feel like I got something better. I bought books. I finally brought myself to do it. I always want to but then I think that I can just get them at the library. Most of the time I can't becuase the library system sucks where I go to school. So I bought myself five good reads and I feel like a million dollars could not have satisfied me on my shopping trip more than this.....well maybe. But it would be close.

I have been saving all of the pictures that inspire me to design clothes. There are so many things that I see everyday that I really want to remember for when I start designing clothes. The thing is that I don't know when that is....so I decided to cut out the things that inspire me and put them in a book so that I will have them to look at when I finally do start designing.

This Dolce and Gabbana piece was something that really caught my eye. I like it because I'm hugh on staying warm and looking cute.

I really think thats a bad picture of it. But you get the idea. Its really warm and really fitted. I feel like you can be warm and cute even though you are going to have to look a little bulky. I hear a lot of people complain that they lose their middle in warm winter coats.

It's ok! It's winter and everyone is wearing the same shapeless coats. But I find that coats with belts are cute. A little older looking but thats classic and I find that they still give you a waist. There is one coat that I found that I'm in love with. I'll have to post it next time when I get a chance. Have a great day! Happy beginning of the holidays.

this some body

what the mirror said by Lucille Clifton

listen,

you a wonder.

you a city

of a woman.

you got geography

of your own.

listen,

somebody need a map

to understand you.
somebody need directions

to move around you.

listen,

woman,

you not a noplace

anonymous

girl;

mister with his hands on you

he got his hands on some

damn

body!

I really appreciate her words and her poetry because it is very strong. I read that poem and feel good to that I am a woman with a body, but I am not just a body, I am some body. It is important to remember that. Many women get caught up in their own body. As if a body makes you who you are. It is important to accept your body and feel powerful in it. It is also important to remember the somebody that you are.

Even I, who thinks about this all the time, get caught up and confused about body image and trying to accept it into my life in a healthy way. Sometimes I look at my body and think "a females body is sexy and powerful." I think to use it to my advantage. When others consider this I usually get mixed responses.

like this...

Some say: You put women back hundreds of years, we work hard to show our minds make us equals. Men hold us down by making us worth nothing more than a body for sex.

Some say: You have something powerful and sexual. You have another tool to use to your advantage. Don't hate and hide the female body just because it holds this strengh.

But sometimes I feel like relying on your body is wrong. Depending on your mind seems like the most reasonable way to go. Other times I feel like why do I let sexuality seem like a negative thing. As a matter of fact it seems like more than ever when women were held as unequals their bodies were being held back just like their minds.

So why not flaunt it all. You can use everything you have. You don't have to be ashamed of being intelligent or sexy. Just doing it in the right way seems like the best idea. If you have something intelligent to say, then share. You don't have to be a arrogant know it all to sound smart. Doing it tastfully to help yourself and others seems appropriate. Same with our female bodies. We have it, we can use it tastefully. You don't have to wear obsecene things to show how amazing your body is. You can show it in a tasteful way. You don't have to hide it. You just have to respect it.

Your beautiful mind, your beautiful body.

Benefits of a Massage

I am deffinally in love with massages. Really brightens up your day. I realize your body's condition says a lot about you. I have been really busy and lots of things are changing all over the place. The massage therapist told me I have a lot of tension in my back. Could be. So of course I let her work out the kinks as I tried to work out the kinks in my mind. I can't help all the stress in my life. I just need to learn to handle and destress once in a while. So I have a yoga dvd that I plan on doing when I need to relax. Healthy and relaxin. LOL less stress here I come.

I really love Lucille Clifton. Her work is feministic and real. I enjoy reading about how she views herself and others .... take a look at something she's written sometime. It really gives a fresh and different out look on the subjects she talks about. Maybe I will put one of her poems in tomorrow. As for now, I am going to go study some spanish....get some sleep. I really think when I sleep right after I study it sticks with me better....who knows.

First times a charm

First time blogging is kinda exciting. I really never got into it but did enjoy reading other people's. I guess this is kind of an experiment. Like journals you keep in highschool that you write in only seven or eight random entries a year just because you found it under your bed once in a while and felt bad cause you had made a new years resolution to write in it everyday. I am going to try to write in here at least twice a week. Just to keep up with everything. I'm trying to make a point to write everyday. Eventually publish a book or two. LOL but I never really sit down and write...so I guess this is an effort to force some quailty keyboard time out of myself. So enjoy!

I really love the idea of a charm bracelet. It really is...well...charming. You can create a story or anything with it really. The one above is really pretty just because I love the pink. Its very dainty while still being chunky. The only thing is that I don't like wearing it because of all the jingeling and heavyness. I am on a mission to create one that is so great I have to wear it. First. What do I want on it...I guess I'll have to think about it.